A bit of a serious post - most of the people reading this blog know what is going on with us right now and I guess I just feel like writing about it. I feel like all I'm doing is waiting for other people to make a decision about my life.
Waiting for word from our mortgage people to see if they are going to let us refinance for a lower payment, or if we are going to have to move. Waiting for my employer to make a decision about whether or not they are going to keep the branch I work for open. Waiting to see if they are going to give me more work to do, or lay me off like they have others. They are moving so many jobs to Manila - our people training the people over there on how to do their jobs. While telling those people that they are not going to be losing their jobs. They are not going to move jobs over there without eliminating ones over here, that wouldn't make any sense. The big question is who is going to be eliminated? All the jobs being moved right now are the corporate jobs. Those people are being told that they will have different roles once the training is complete. Some of the things they are going to be doing are things that are currently MY job. Not all of my job, but a lot of it. So. Are they lying to them? Or are they going to get rid of individual branch admin people?
So many questions. So much waiting to see what happens. Should I use my vacation time now before I lose it? And then be stuck with none if I'm not one of the ones gone?
I'm really trying to have a "que sera, sera" attitude about it, but it is weighing on my mind anyway. There are things I need to do, but I can't motivate myself to do them. Organization... never been my strong point at home. At work? I'm very detailed and I know where everything is, but at home? Another story. I need to simplify an organize and I don't know where to begin.
I read a post over at The Women's Colony - and the comments / advice left - so I've started to try to do things a little at a time. I have a box I'm filling with clothes I don't wear. I have been trying to do things for 30 minutes each night to try to get organized. I only started this week, so I haven't accomplished much, but it does make me feel a little better. It just seems like it's going to take forever.
My goal for now is to fill a few more boxes and take them, as well as the stuff already boxed in the garage, to the Free Store in town this Saturday. I like donating to them because they don't sell it - they give it to people who need it. Once I get some stuff out of here, maybe the rest will come more easily.
I can only hope.